The Goodbye...

Well my husband shipped out 30 ago today.  My family and I have gone through the emotions, the ups and downs, the laughter and the cries. Its like we have been in morning. A few days ago we had to go through yet again another good-bye. Justin was leaving the states and flying to the base, his next home for the next year. But till this point there is always a chance something comes up and they could fly home. But nope this is it. The day is here. So we get the FaceTime call... this is the last time we will be able to see him for a while. its a bitter sweet moment. i did video record it so i could share the emotions with you. my children and I are rather strong. We have never let him see us cry. Out of all the goodbye i have had to say t o him he hasn't seen a tear drop. But he has seen my eyes fill up, my bottom lip quiver and he has heard it in my voice. but never the act of crying, at the moment of goodbye.

After we say "see ya later" i cry, and just hold my babies or a few minutes. My son is the sweetest child. He hugs me and tell me "it's not for ever mom" Just hearing him say those words to me snaps me out of it!

My children are the reason this is the easiest deployment so far. My husband and i have been blessed with well behaved and healthy children. i thank god for that daily!!